Thursday, April 08, 2010

Frustrated and a Little Bit Sad

Damn, I'm having a rough day.  I've been a college student for a LOOOOOOONG time.  Due a few factors I couldn't control and a few of my own.  And I've also worked myself all the way through school.  Working full time and taking classes full time.  That can make it take a while to get things done. 

Started out wanting to be a lawyer, then decided I wanted to be a mommy more than I wanted to be a lawyer so I went into a different field.  Starting over in your 20's, gotta love it.  I changed my mind because law school takes a long time and I didn't want to be trying to go to school and take care of a baby at the same time.  I've sinced changed my mind and don't even know if I want kids.  But I digress. 

Now I'm in Medical Coding and Billing.  Healthcare is a career that is growing, especially in this economy and healthcare workers will always be needed because people are always getting sick or hurt.  Kind of a morbid way to look at how I wish to make my living, but oh well. 

I have 3 classes left.  THREE FREAKIN CLASSES!  So I got intouch with my local AAPC chapter in order to get involved in the healthcare community here in town and get my foot in the door.  Only to find out that I have to be AHIMA certified.  Which takes TWO YEARS!   TWO FREAKIN YEARS!!! 

Ouch.

I know a lot of you guys work in the healthcare industry.  Do you have any advice?  I'm considering an apprenticeship, allowing me to stay where I am when I get certified. 

I really am bothered by this.  I just want to sit down and cry.  It's also causing me to have some sort of anxiety.  I'm dizzy, shaking and just want to break down and cry like a little girl and go back to bed. 

DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!

Well, that's all I have for now.  Need to get some homework done.  That way I can enroll in my extra two year program.  *sigh*  It really sucks to be turning 30 and not having a hill of beans to show for being on this planet for 3 decades. 

Booooo! 

Happy posting everyone.  Have a good day.

8 comments:

Stephanie said...

If it's any consolation, i started college in 1990 and didn't get my Bachelor's degree until this past May. I never thought I would finish. Life just sort of kept getting in the way..leaving school after 3 years to get a real job, getting married, having a baby...it happens, but the only obstacles preventing you from completing your schooling are the ones you set in front of yourself. I kept procrastinating, saying that I'd be the oldest one in my classes, didn't remember enough from when I was back in school...but I finally sucked it up and kept on going. At my graduation ceremony I was the oldest undergraduate out of 1000 students. The president of the University even mentioned me at the ceremony, but I was proud to hear my accomplishment lauded. Two years may seem like a long time to you now, but really in the grand scheme of things, it's just a blip on the radar. Stay strong!

amandakiska said...

That sounds really frustrating, Erika. I also did the college thing in my 20'2/30's. I finished my Bachelor's in 2006 and I am so glad to be done. It is really tough to work and go to school. In your case, I am sure there are ways to get your foot in the door without the certification. My mom did medical records for a large pharmacy that supplies nursing homes. Her degree is actually as a pharmacy tech. Just keep plugging away. BTW I once thought about law school too.

Jennifer said...

I don't have any advice for you but I wanted to say sorry you are having a bad day! ((((Hugs)))

LDswims said...

I can't offer any advice on the certifications needed to get into doing what you want to do. But I can say that you DO have a hill of beans to show for your 30 years. A degree is quite satisfying and you will feel great when you finish it. But it doesn't prove worth or smartness or that you matter. YOU prove that every day by living a wonderful life and doing what you love to do. Hang in there.

I, like you, did "other" things right off the bat which included going in the Navy so I could travel the world and just plain do something else. I had to prove to myself why a degree was important. That puts me at 34 and in my company's training program along side 25-26 YO's. I should be a project leader by now. But what I bring to the table with my degrees and my experiences far exceeds my 25-26 yo counterparts. You will shine no matter what because you are a success and the piece of paper that you get when you finish jumping through their hoops will never define who you are. You are a sum of all of your experiences and ultimately, doing college this way probably means more to you.

Don't be down on yourself. Everything happens for a reason, I believe, and usually, at the end of it, the reason turns out to be a blessing.

Barbara said...

Life has twists and turns.. the key is to network.. go to all of the meetings you can. and tell your story....you will connect. Good Luck and congrats on your accomplishments. Very goal oriented..

Drazil said...

NOTHING to show for it? Girl if all you ever are is you living with your own Drazil and Sheniqua YOU are SOMETHING to all of us and all of those in your real life who love you. Never ever forget that! Smooches!

Dirttrackdiva said...

*sniff sniff* wow ladies. thanx so much for all the great support. shedding tears into my hot tea as i type. you're amazing ladies. truly amazing. and thanx again, from the bottom of my heart for all the support.

Anonymous said...

YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING TO ME AND THEN SOME
like i told you these next 2 yr. will go by real fast, it won't be as hard as going thru all you have been thru these past few years.
i love you very much and you will be an amazing mommie some day.
love,
mom

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