Just to give you a heads up about this one before you read it.............this might sound like a holier-than-thou soapbox speech, but it's not. If I come off that way, I'm sorry, realistically, this is my blog, where I put my thoughs and my feelings. If you don't like it, there's the rest of the world wide web for you to explore, far be it for me to stop you.
OK, now, with that being said, let me express a few things that are different between a diet and a lifestyle choice:
Diet/Lifestyle Choice:
cheat days/no cheat days
I can have a little bread, it won't hurt me/can't have breat, it gets stuck, ouch
I can eat a few carbs, no big deal/NO CARBS
Those are just a few of the differences I've discovered since I've been banded the last few months (June 16th is my bandiversary). I am not one of those lucky people that can eat whatever I want and still lose weight. If I was, I wouldn't need the band, right? Duh, right. Anyway, without sounding like a fanatic, I have to be VERY mindful of what I put in my body. High protein all the way for me. So usually, if it doesn't go around on all fours, fly, or swim, I can't eat it. Why is this so hard for some people to understand?! If I could eat that crap I wouldn't have gotten banded in the first damn place! WTF?!
I feel sometimes like people are trying to sabotage me. Hopefully that isn't happening, but who knows. What I do know is this...........I'm in this for the long haul (whether I'm in this alone is yet to be determined) and when I get all hot and skinny and everyone around me isn't, how good are their carbs going to look then? I wonder. I know what's good for me and what's not.
Which takes me back to the subject line of this post. This is a LIFETIME thing. No cheat days, no eating stuff that I damn well know I can't. This is my life, this is a choice I made, and if I have to do this alone, dammit, I will.
Existing With Trauma
1 year ago
1 comments:
I am thrilled you are so intune with the full effects of the lapband... that your so positive about it all. I am so very proud of you and your mom both! I think you are headed down the right road for yourself and we will support you 100% of the way...we love you and miss you :)
http://westerman6.blogspot.com/ here is our blogspot :)
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