I feel like a bad bandster. *does my model walk up and down the living room sporting my cone of shame* I was doing so good at working out before I went on vacation last month. I think it had been every day for a couple of weeks, then I went on vacation, then I was sick, then I got laid off from my job.........I guess it just boils down to that I just flat don't want to do it. *sigh*
You would think the swimsuit challenge (specifically my starting weight) as well as my personal goal of getting into a (non-granny) swimsuit by the end of June would have given me a much needed kick in the ass. Not so folks. I also know that I need a fill, and I can't go back to my doc till the 28th.
I'm not eating much differently, portion size is still the same and I'm drinking my water I just keep getting hungry/grazing. Most days I get about 64oz. You superwomen that get over 100oz/day, whew, I admire you so much. I would have to set up residency in the bathroom. No doubts about it. On the upside, I do have a laptop, hmmmm. 100oz of water here I come. The scale is in there too. I'd be set, right? Oh if it was only that easy. *ponders setting up residency in the bathroom*
Oh, sorry, forgot I was still posting for a moment there thinking of moving into the bathroom. :) I know some of the hunger I'm battling is head hunger. For some reason (9 months after banding) I really battle with this sometimes. I'm split on this issue. Part of me thinks I should be over all this head hungery nonsense by this time. The part of me that wants to sit down with a bag of chips and watch Law and Order: SVU all day is saying "GO FOR IT!" Like the angel/devil on your shoulders. Anyone else?
Head hunger is a very strange animal. Kind of like our lizards (Drazil has inspired me to find mine, more on that to come later). However, I'm sure it is my inner lizard that wants me to sit and watch tv and eat chips all day.
I miss boxing so much as a form of working out I can't stand it. I used to do it six days a week and now I can't even do it one. Not solely because of my weight, which I'm sure would be a factor as to why I can't. I have three herniated disks in my back and one in my neck and my surgeon (for my back) said no way, no how. Last time I went to see him he said that I was doing great and looking good since being banded. I asked him if that meant it was OK to start boxing again and he asked me if I'd lost my mind. *sigh* Guess that's a big fat NO! When I do work out I do resistence band training or pilates. Pilates though is still kinda rough on my back so I try to stick with the resistence band. However, a Wii Fit is on my list. I wanted one when we got the Wii, but we didn't have the extra 100 some odd bux to get that too.
Has anyone ever noticed that when your house needs to be cleaned it effects you in a negative way? I'm not a neat freak by ANY stretch of the imagination. I clean about as well as I cook. Those of you that have read all my posts or know me knows that skill is pretty much nonexistant. Pretty much anything domestic. I don't have a domestic bone in my body. Never have, and probably at this age I never will. I'm ok with that. It's just who I am. I pretty much wait for stuff to get out of control around the house and then it takes days/weeks to get it clean. And it never seems to stay that way. I guess you could say that my house looks lived in. :)
There are times when I look at myself and don't think I've accomplished anything. Going back to my post from a few days ago, I know that's not the case. Guess I'm just having a pity party today. Garcia, party of one.
Well, I guess that's all for me today. Happy posting everyone.
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ok yall, i think i fixed the comments. sorry for the delay.
OH thank God - I wanted to comment and couldn't. Can't wait to hear what you name your lizard. Oh and boxing - I really think I want to try it - do you go to a gym or have a bag in your home? Tell me more!
YAY Comments! Oh, and your 'parents' post was wonderful! Everyone is allowed down days...even weeks...more than that and we have a pity party here to cheer you up! Watch out for the head hunger! Easter...candy...ahhhhh!
We all have these days. Maybe you should look into water aerobics. It would be easier on your back and its a lot of fun.
I think we all have these slump cycles and I think you've had a hell of a one between the flu and losing your job. I keep telling myself that one of the biggest reasons I'm getting the band is so that when I have a slump cycle and get thrown off track for working out, I will still have something there to remind me not to eat the bag of chips while watching Law and Order SVU. Although, for me, that would be Cold Case or The Good Wife or Private Practice. Ok, I'm done, just being semantic, now.
Anyway. You are still beating this. It's ok to be in a slump. It's even better that you realize what it is and you are not letting it rule you! Think about how that compares to pre-band. I know, in my case, historically speaking, the slumps have ruled me. And that is depressing in itself.
So I'm assuming no boxing means you can't box against another person? Or does it even mean no hitting bags or speed bags or any of the other fun stuff?
Hang in there - you really are doing great and you are an inspiration to me!
wow ladies. thanx so much for all of the great supportive comments.
in regards to the boxing the answer is yes, to all of the above. i used to go the gym, had the stuff at home and also sparred against a trainer and hit the heavy and speed bags. i did for six days a week. i initially did it to lose weight for my wedding and it worked. i loved it so much that i stuck with it.
ldswims, in regards to the water aerobics, i tried that as a form of therapy for my back, and everything was fine as long as i was in the water, but about an hour after i got out i was in more pain than ever. strange thing. my doc never really did figure it out.
drazil, still working on my lizard. research research research. lol
it's raining buckets here today. what better day to learn about my inner anphibian than a rainy day. lol
thanx again for all of the support yall. i love you all. kisses and hugs.
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